Take a Breath

There is so many things tonight, that is just screaming for me to take pause and breath in this moment of life that surrounds me.

Holidays brings out many different aspects of our personalities. Stress of being with or without family, things we lost or people we found, elation of engagements and mourning of deaths always seem to happen this time of year. It really is the pinnacle of the emotional roller coaster ride for the year, and just to top it off we have weight loss and gym corporations reminding us all to take stock once again in ourselves... just in case we didn't get it right this year.

There is one thing I got right, and his birthday is tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow is the day my oldest son turns five years old. Tomorrow, it's all about him, but tonight as I sit by monitor light recapping on this moment, it's all about me. Five years ago my life and heart went though a metamorphasis and I couldn't be more grateful.

Three years after a traumatic loss, almost six years after a wonderful wedding to a man who's showing me the best of my dream unimagines are among the highs and lows in my memories tonight. My heart however is grateful for the moment that gave me a future and I met this wonderful little five year old boy we named Aiden. And I must admit, I must have paid off the right person in a past life because this little boy is a pure heart, gentle and kind, a great big brother, sensitive and caring, funny, happy, and as creative as there is space in the universe somehow is my son. Not only that, but by having him in my life, he has brougth other wonderful people to me that I would have otherwise never known.

Indeed, this is a time of year for reflection and gratitude. And my cup overflow.